Seeds Over Saplings
Age gracefully.
Who values this phrase? I have no
inkling for others’ opinions, but for the span of my 40+ years youth has been more
widely valued. Ignore the perennial
pursuit of women both to accentuate and prolong their youthful enticements
(fashion, make up, diets, etc). These
things do not reflect how one ages but the years of fertility and heightened
femininity, a relatively narrow window in time beyond which the odds decrease
for securing a husband and bearing children.
Age gracefully.
The hyper intellectual asks in response, “what’s its opposite? What is
it to age disgracefully?” When you
follow the themes of pop musicians with the staying power to last many decades,
you can see distilled patterns of average people. For example Gene Simmons and Paul Stanley of
Kiss, that vaudevillian rock band from the seventies. They were as much a raucous storyline as
rock 'n’ roll musicians (and they did produce some quality stuff). Fast forward four decades and you can find
them waxing sagacious. They have settled
into a kind of live-and-let live form of wisdom. They have traveled the wild ways and found a
way of peace forged by lessons of wild days.
Is this aging gracefully?
Maybe. It’s a
relief to see that time enables learning and an escape from the traps we erect
for ourselves when young. But without
diminishing the value of trial by fire, the boys of Kiss fail to draw the
lesson beyond themselves. To paraphrase:
We have learned what works for us. It
does not serve them anymore. So the
extent of wisdom amounts to “been there, done that,” rather than, “I shouldn’t
o’ done that.” While not entirely disgraceful,
it carries forward the kernel of self centeredness. A disgrace would be to have learned nothing
and continued whole hog in the wild ways, reckless into the grave.
Since my youth I have not resonated to the worry
expressed by nearly everyone else about aging.
Age itself is no threat, but the universally unavoidable condition of
living. No point in fighting it. I had more concern over what kind of old man I
would become, and it only became a concern in light of three observations. One, I had encountered some old persons who
radiated joy with an innocence found in children, but well weathered, and
therefore solid. Two, I also encountered
old persons who radiated bitterness and a generally sour demeanor. Nothing of childhood innocence seemed
present. They, too, had been weathered,
but instead were hard, brittle and small.
Third, I had noticed a correlation between this latter group and the
desire to prolong the vitality of youth; the tighter one clings to it, the more
likely one resents the inevitable passing of time.
The puzzle immediately presented itself. Given that I will grow old, how can I find myself in the first group? Clearly clinging to my youthful strengths
would fail. So I looked to the eternal—or
I should say, “The Eternal,” the Holy Trinity, the Lord Jesus—and have been
rewarded richly, while not avoiding trouble.[1]
Ironically among the eternal things I
discovered the seeds of childhood, things that shone brightly in the first
group, and barely in the second. Somehow
clinging to youthful strength runs counter to those seeds. The younger, not the older, benefits aging
more?
To be more specific, something about personality
exists at birth and remains unchanged through time. This can only be observed across generations,
and retained in wise sayings handed down across ages. For example, Genesis tells of Jacob and Esau,
how at birth Jacob usurped his fraternal twin, pulling him back from the birth
canal, making way for himself, Jacob, to be born first. Babies don’t plot, they just do. In some meaningful sense this is Jacob. I have seen such continuity in my own children
whose personalities as grownups, to my surprise, resemble the personalities that
rolled, bumped and prodded in the womb.
Was it not so for me? Surely it
was.
When I gather all the personalities that I have
encountered either directly or in historical tales, one thing becomes clear. Each personality type has the capacity for
refined or debauched moral character.
The debauched personality sees the most change, a kind of deterioration,
a bland conformity that simply rejects all but self. The refined moral personality, on the other
hand, does not see an opposite effect of changed personality. Rather the refined moral person finds a
fuller expression of who he was in the beginning.
“Growing up” oddly enough, turns out to be literal,
not just a horticultural metaphor. That
seedling of personality can grow into a stunning cedar, a beautiful rose, a
stately saguaro when it receives proper light, water and nourishment. Proper.
That’s decisive, and where better find it than the Original Source? To stay a sapling, shuts out proper
nourishment, shuns the Source, stifling the cedar. That was group two. Group one was a garden, a vineyard, an orchard,
a variety of grownup children—seeds become cedars and a host of beautiful
blooms.
[1] Only
God knows why it is I have been spared extreme suffering. In my opinion, I am not worthy to endure it.
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